Why Does Attachment Hurt the Most When Love Is Given So Freely?

 Yes, “The more you care, the more it hurts.”

Have you ever found yourself wondering why the people you love the most end up hurting you the deepest? Why the ones you attach your heart to walk away or disappoint you, leaving behind a storm of emotions?

I've asked myself this question countless times. When you give someone all your love, time, care, and emotional space, you unknowingly start building an invisible thread of attachment. And this thread is delicate — it’s made of emotions, expectations, and hope.

But what happens when that thread breaks?

Pain. Disappointment. Emptiness.

When Life Feels Unfair: A Letter to the Universe

 Lately, I've found myself sitting quietly with my thoughts, feeling the weight of days that seem heavier than usual.

There’s a phase in life that no one really prepares you for — the moments when despite all your good intentions, hard work, kindness, and patience, things still don't turn out the way you hoped.

I won’t sugarcoat it — right now, it feels unfair.
It feels like the more I give, the more life demands.
The more I hope, the harder reality hits.
The more I believe, the longer the waiting becomes.

Some days, it feels like the universe has forgotten to answer my prayers, like my efforts are swallowed into silence.
And yet, even in this storm of emotions, a tiny part of me refuses to give up.

Maybe that’s what faith is — not a blind expectation of rewards, but a stubborn belief that even through injustice, pain, and endless trials, blessings are still possible.
Maybe it’s about showing up for life even when life doesn’t show up for you the way you deserve.

Dear God, dear Universe —
If you’re listening, please shower a little more kindness.
Please remind me that struggles are not punishments.
Please show me that endurance, even when unnoticed, still matters.

And to anyone reading who feels like they are also carrying too much —
You’re not alone.
Your battles are valid.
Your prayers are heard, even if the answers are taking longer than you hoped.

Maybe we are being shaped into stronger, softer, deeper souls.
Maybe someday we will look back and realize: we survived what we thought would break us.

Until then, here’s to holding on.
Here’s to whispering "I believe" even with a trembling voice.
Here’s to still hoping for better days.

Because they will come.
They always do.

A Letter to My Dad: Love, Regret, and Unfinished Dreams

Dear Dad,

It’s been years since you left us on that fateful day, May 27, 2019. But not a day passes without me thinking of you, feeling your presence in everything I do. Today, I write this letter to express my gratitude, my regrets, and the promises I am striving to keep—on your behalf.

I still remember those days in the hospital, during your chemotherapy sessions. You endured so much pain, yet you never let it overshadow your hopes for me and my sister. Your biggest wish was to see us both succeed, to see us settled and happy in our lives. You wanted the best for us, and I regret that I didn’t create more memories with you when I had the chance due to not staying in the town. I wish I had spent more time sitting beside you, listening to your wisdom, and cherishing those moments. But life, in its cruel swiftness, didn’t give me enough time.

After you left, the world completely changed for all three of us. With Babaji’s grace, Kiran (my elder sister) is well settled now. Shlok has grown up—he is a copy of you. An intelligent boy, always a topper in his class. About Mom, yeah, you said to keep her in Vadodara, and we did that. Honestly, no one can replace you. Just bless all three of us.

There are days when I crave our conversations—the way you would listen to my worries about work, about life, and somehow, with just a few words, make everything feel okay. I miss your advice, your reassurance, your belief in me. You always had faith in my abilities, even when I doubted myself.

I hope you are at peace, watching over us with a smile. And I hope that someday, when I look back, I will know that I have lived a life that would have made you proud.

Still, there’s a little mess in life—one that I am responsible for clearing up. I know it won’t be that easy, but I owe it to myself, to our family, and to you.

With love and endless gratitude,

Your Daughter - Heena Bachani (Honey).

Bura na mano, Holi hai!

 

This picture perfectly captures that feeling—candid, raw, and full of life. A reminder that sometimes, the best moments are unplanned, the best smiles are unposed, and the best memories are made when you least expect them.

Natural Holi highlights in my hair.

 From brainstorming sessions to festive celebrations, we stand together through it all. And Holi was the perfect way to cherish those bonds—filled with vibrant colors, endless laughter, and unfiltered joy.

A team that plays together, stays together!

Happy Holi from my amazing team! 🌸🎨💖

 

                                   

My Journey at Matrix Comsec: From Inside Sales to Leadership

They say growth is a journey, not a destination. Looking back at my time with Matrix Comsec Pvt. Ltd., I can truly relate to this. What started as a role in Inside Sales has transformed into a leadership journey filled with learning, challenges, and immense gratitude.

The Beginning

On October 19, 2019, I joined Matrix Comsec as an Inside Sales Executive. The world of sales, especially in a dynamic and competitive industry like ours, was an exciting challenge. From understanding products and solutions to learning the nuances of customer engagement, every day was a new lesson.

The Growth Phase

 With dedication, consistent efforts, and the support of my team and mentors, I navigated through various roles. In just three and a half years, I earned the opportunity to lead as the Team Leader for Regular System Integrators of PAN India. This transition was not just a change in designation but a shift in responsibilities, perspectives, and leadership skills.

The Support System

Growth is never a solo journey. I am immensely grateful to my internal stakeholders, cross-departmental teams, and my amazing team members who have played a crucial role in shaping my professional path. Most importantly, a big thank you to our external stakeholders – our Distributors and System Integrators – for their unwavering trust and collaboration.

Looking Ahead

Today, as an Assistant Manager - Domestic Sales, I look forward to new challenges, bigger responsibilities, and opportunities to contribute to the growth of Matrix Comsec. This journey has reinforced my belief that with passion, persistence, and the right people around, success is inevitable.

"With every new role and added responsibility, my hair got shorter—maybe that’s my way of ‘cutting down’ on stress!" 😆