When Life Feels Unfair: A Letter to the Universe

 Lately, I've found myself sitting quietly with my thoughts, feeling the weight of days that seem heavier than usual.

There’s a phase in life that no one really prepares you for — the moments when despite all your good intentions, hard work, kindness, and patience, things still don't turn out the way you hoped.

I won’t sugarcoat it — right now, it feels unfair.
It feels like the more I give, the more life demands.
The more I hope, the harder reality hits.
The more I believe, the longer the waiting becomes.

Some days, it feels like the universe has forgotten to answer my prayers, like my efforts are swallowed into silence.
And yet, even in this storm of emotions, a tiny part of me refuses to give up.

Maybe that’s what faith is — not a blind expectation of rewards, but a stubborn belief that even through injustice, pain, and endless trials, blessings are still possible.
Maybe it’s about showing up for life even when life doesn’t show up for you the way you deserve.

Dear God, dear Universe —
If you’re listening, please shower a little more kindness.
Please remind me that struggles are not punishments.
Please show me that endurance, even when unnoticed, still matters.

And to anyone reading who feels like they are also carrying too much —
You’re not alone.
Your battles are valid.
Your prayers are heard, even if the answers are taking longer than you hoped.

Maybe we are being shaped into stronger, softer, deeper souls.
Maybe someday we will look back and realize: we survived what we thought would break us.

Until then, here’s to holding on.
Here’s to whispering "I believe" even with a trembling voice.
Here’s to still hoping for better days.

Because they will come.
They always do.

A Letter to My Dad: Love, Regret, and Unfinished Dreams

Dear Dad,

It’s been years since you left us on that fateful day, May 27, 2019. But not a day passes without me thinking of you, feeling your presence in everything I do. Today, I write this letter to express my gratitude, my regrets, and the promises I am striving to keep—on your behalf.

I still remember those days in the hospital, during your chemotherapy sessions. You endured so much pain, yet you never let it overshadow your hopes for me and my sister. Your biggest wish was to see us both succeed, to see us settled and happy in our lives. You wanted the best for us, and I regret that I didn’t create more memories with you when I had the chance due to not staying in the town. I wish I had spent more time sitting beside you, listening to your wisdom, and cherishing those moments. But life, in its cruel swiftness, didn’t give me enough time.

After you left, the world completely changed for all three of us. With Babaji’s grace, Kiran (my elder sister) is well settled now. Shlok has grown up—he is a copy of you. An intelligent boy, always a topper in his class. About Mom, yeah, you said to keep her in Vadodara, and we did that. Honestly, no one can replace you. Just bless all three of us.

There are days when I crave our conversations—the way you would listen to my worries about work, about life, and somehow, with just a few words, make everything feel okay. I miss your advice, your reassurance, your belief in me. You always had faith in my abilities, even when I doubted myself.

I hope you are at peace, watching over us with a smile. And I hope that someday, when I look back, I will know that I have lived a life that would have made you proud.

Still, there’s a little mess in life—one that I am responsible for clearing up. I know it won’t be that easy, but I owe it to myself, to our family, and to you.

With love and endless gratitude,

Your Daughter - Heena Bachani (Honey).

Bura na mano, Holi hai!

 

This picture perfectly captures that feeling—candid, raw, and full of life. A reminder that sometimes, the best moments are unplanned, the best smiles are unposed, and the best memories are made when you least expect them.

Natural Holi highlights in my hair.

 From brainstorming sessions to festive celebrations, we stand together through it all. And Holi was the perfect way to cherish those bonds—filled with vibrant colors, endless laughter, and unfiltered joy.

A team that plays together, stays together!

Happy Holi from my amazing team! 🌸🎨💖

 

                                   

My Journey at Matrix Comsec: From Inside Sales to Leadership

They say growth is a journey, not a destination. Looking back at my time with Matrix Comsec Pvt. Ltd., I can truly relate to this. What started as a role in Inside Sales has transformed into a leadership journey filled with learning, challenges, and immense gratitude.

The Beginning

On October 19, 2019, I joined Matrix Comsec as an Inside Sales Executive. The world of sales, especially in a dynamic and competitive industry like ours, was an exciting challenge. From understanding products and solutions to learning the nuances of customer engagement, every day was a new lesson.

The Growth Phase

 With dedication, consistent efforts, and the support of my team and mentors, I navigated through various roles. In just three and a half years, I earned the opportunity to lead as the Team Leader for Regular System Integrators of PAN India. This transition was not just a change in designation but a shift in responsibilities, perspectives, and leadership skills.

The Support System

Growth is never a solo journey. I am immensely grateful to my internal stakeholders, cross-departmental teams, and my amazing team members who have played a crucial role in shaping my professional path. Most importantly, a big thank you to our external stakeholders – our Distributors and System Integrators – for their unwavering trust and collaboration.

Looking Ahead

Today, as an Assistant Manager - Domestic Sales, I look forward to new challenges, bigger responsibilities, and opportunities to contribute to the growth of Matrix Comsec. This journey has reinforced my belief that with passion, persistence, and the right people around, success is inevitable.

"With every new role and added responsibility, my hair got shorter—maybe that’s my way of ‘cutting down’ on stress!" 😆

Rediscovering Myself: A Journey Back to the Old Me

There comes a time in life when we lose touch with the person we once were. Responsibilities, struggles, and the weight of time mold us into someone different—someone perhaps a little quieter, a little more guarded, and maybe even a little lost.

For years, I felt like I had forgotten how to laugh with my whole heart, to smile without a second thought. But then, something magical happened.

A trip. A change of scenery. And a special friend.

As I stood there, soaking in the beauty of nature, the sun kissing my skin, the cool breeze playing with my hair, I felt something shift inside me. It wasn’t just the picturesque views or the serene surroundings—it was the company I was in. A friend who unknowingly reminded me of the carefree, happy-go-lucky Heena I used to be.

There was laughter—the kind that bubbles up from deep within, the kind that doesn’t just escape your lips but lights up your entire soul. There was joy, the kind that makes your heart feel lighter. And for the first time in a long, long while, I saw myself again—the old Heena, the one who lived in the moment, the one who embraced happiness without hesitation.

Sometimes, all it takes is one person to reignite a spark you thought was long gone. Someone who sees you not for who life has shaped you into, but for who you truly are. Someone who brings back the unfiltered, unapologetic version of you—the version that laughs a little louder, smiles a little brighter, and loves life a little more.

To my special friend—you may not even realize it, but you gave me back a piece of myself. And for that, I will always be grateful.

This journey was not just about traveling to a new place; it was about coming home to myself. And I couldn't have asked for a better travel companion on this road back to me.

 

May be destiny wanted me to wait for the right moment, the right person, and the right adventure to remind myself of who she was all along. And now, as I walk forward, I do so with a heart full of gratitude, a soul that feels lighter, and a smile that finally reaches my eyes again.

Thank You!!!!

To my Lifepartner

With my Soulmate…

I still sometime wonder that Is this really happening in reality like ‘We Are Life Partner’s’ 

The first whatsapp message from him that ‘Honey Are you Free On Sunday? Let’s catch up for Coffee’ 

And, I responded ‘Yes, I am available for a cup of coffee!!!’ And, that Sunday with all that nervousness with the thinking what he is going to talk to me? Like When mom dad told him about me, what would be his reaction? Or if he has someone already in his mind? Might be I do match his requirements/liking’s. 

Yes, with that our first coffee we started thinking about each other more in deep and eventually with couple of more meetings we said YES, we are ready to move ahead as a LIFE PARTNER but with much more stronger FRIENDSHIP.

So, Finally we said officially YES with the blessings of our elders on 12th FEB, 2022

Then, we exchanged our RINGS with blessings of our elders on 26th FEB, 2022

Special Note: Thanks for making yesterday evening very special😜🥤⭐️✨ You gifted me what I was needed the most and was waiting for longer time. I Love you 🥰

Our ❤️ Story has much more….. 

For time being, till here…

The only thing I am eagerly waiting for our wedding date which is 30th Dec, 2022.

{Lots of Love}

Your Honey❤️

This is for you, DAD........................!

 

My SuperHero,,, He was everything to us. 

Next month 27th May 2022.... It would be exact 3 years since you left us,,, the biggest loss!

You were the only man who used to agree with my arguments that girls and boys should have equal rights.... And, Not only boys should leave their house to grow,,,, it should be us also who should move out of the house and grow in their career....Hence, I am really really grateful for that and because of you today I have reached here.... Of course,,,, not upto your expectations... I will try my best to reach atleast nearby your expectations.

If you would have alive then definitely I would have reached more heights than where I am today... Because,,, that motivation lacks now and no one can do that on behalf of you. 

I wanna say that your little honey who used to wear shorts and roam around, still keeps doing that ;-) But, your departure made me quite mature and empty from inside. 

Thank You for the life lesson you taught me, your wisdom taught me the meaning of happiness.

"Throughout the years, you taught me how to be a strong, and independent person."

Now, finally, I am a strong independent woman...!!!

I Miss you like hell Papa,,, Radha Soami!!! 

Your Daughter,

Honey!!!